My apologies for the blogging shortage around here lately; it's been unusually busy in our house. It's not our calendar schedule, but our day-to-day schedule that's had me in fits!
We're having a really trying season with Olivia. We're working with her on backtalk, immediate obedience, and selfishness. It's been incredibly exhausting, but (I think) this particular phase of intense testing is nearing an end.
Brienna is either going through a growth spurt or changing in her sleep needs. Or maybe both. It's a huge stress for me, this breastfeeding challenge. I'm 100% NOT ready to wean or even start solids, so I've been gathering all the information I can and really concentrating on upping my milk supply. I've also been playing around with her daily routine. She can't make it to bedtime on just 2 naps, but 3 naps proves too much sleep! And then there's the nighttime waking & feeding...
Satan loves to attack when we're tired--at least for me! I'm most vulnerable when I'm sleep-deprived and stressed. Would you pray with me? Here are some specific ways I've been praying:
- That I'll find little pockets of time for rest and/or sleep during the day. If this one can be accomplished, then all of the other things are far more manageable! It seems to be the lynch pin for me--to resist Satan's mind games, to enable my body to produce more milk, and to help with patience for child training. And I certainly don't want to compromise my immune system with all this sleep-deprivation! Getting sick on top of it all... a recipe for disaster!
- That I'll allow the nonessentials to slide during this short-lived, albeit difficult, season of life. I never thought it'd be such a discipline to spend less time doing household chores! It's important to focus on the things which are most important: my relationship with God, and my relationships with my precious family.
- That God would give me wisdom regarding Brienna's feeding and sleeping habits. And that he would "give the increase" where breastfeeding is concerned! *grin*
- That I would fix my mind upon the truths of God's Word. Satan's attacks are constant, and they are fierce! He aims to get my focus off of God and onto myself. It takes work to maintain joy on a daily basis, but it takes much more work to restore joy that's been lost. I've been renewing my mind with these thoughts, and I know God is slowly helping to re-train my thought processes.
All that said, I hope you understand why I may be pretty scarce around here for a bit. Thanks for your understanding and your prayers!