The girls & I are relaxing at Nate's folks' home this evening. We were supposed to finish our trip home this evening; we've missed Nate! But due to a late start this morning and an impending storm, Nate thought it best that we wait until tomorrow to go home. Instead of sitting around being disappointed & pining away for Nate, though, I'll catch y'all up on what's been going on in our lives the past few weeks. Have you noticed I haven't been blogging quite so much? Well, here's why:
In late December & January I battled almost constant moodiness, impatience, and exhaustion. I've never been in a "funk" like that, for so long, and no matter how purposefully I prayed and tried to rest in the Lord, I could not make the fog go away. I began to wonder, quite literally, if I were losing it. The things that brought me joy did not, and all I wanted to do was crawl into bed and cry & sleep. Finally I talked to Nate honestly about it (imagine that!), and I confessed that I thought I may be depressed. He was wonderful about it, of course, and we resolved together to take steps to remedy the problem.
In late January I was flattened for a couple of days with terrible nausea. Thankfully, it happened to fall on Nate's days off. Toward the end of day 2, I admitted to Nate rather reluctantly, "This is how I feel when I'm pregnant." I took a test, fully expecting to quickly toss the negative results into the trash and return to the couch. To my shock, the test immediately registered as positive.
I was relieved to know that I was not crazy or depressed, although 4 weeks of debilitating, incessant nausea ensued [The real reason we spent a week here with Grammy & Grampy]. Thankfully, the worst of it seems to have passed. I'm 12 weeks along, and my due date is September 21. I'm so thankful for God's grace, and for helpful friends and family. The past 6 weeks have been a time of such intense growth and stretching--some of the most difficult and revealing that I've experienced. How sweet to know firsthand that I can trust Him to provide for all of my needs... one day, one hour, one moment at a time.